I know what you’re thinking… this is over-due. And you’re right!

This post’s overdueness is both cause and symptom. The hard fact of the matter is that life rushes in. Passion projects that don’t pay suffer. Sometimes you (read: me) find yourself kicked out of your apartment, broken up with and fired in a three month period. Sometimes you get re-hired, but at a job that takes up most of your time, and what time it doesn’t take up leaves you physically and mentally exhausted. Sometimes you have friend and family matters to attend to, and sometimes you just want to enjoy being young. For a long time, I had a really good routine, and I’ll admit it, I lost that routine. But in a way, I think I needed to.

The other hard fact of the matter is that my relationship with music and music writing is changing and evolving. Both as a matter of life circumstance/experience, as a matter of being in the music writing community, and paying attention to it even when I’m not really in it, I’ve seen how childish and immature the music writing community can be. It’s heartbreaking. I never wanted to be a music writer to get in fights with other music writers, to offend anyone’s sensibilities, or because I think my taste is the best taste of all time. Maybe, once upon a time, I did. But certainly not now. Music writing should be about music, plain and simple. But it’s turned into theatrical wrestling matches. Perhaps this is a product of a career that is, truly, dying as a career, and in a way, as an art. I denied that fact for a long time, but it’s undeniable at this point. As time passes, there are less and less jobs that actually pay, and more and more people fighting over them. So, I suppose it was only a matter of time until people started fighting dirty. It has left a bitter taste in my mouth, and left me in the position of wondering how much I really want to devote my work to that kind of community. This isn’t to say that all music writers are like this – certainly, there are some really fantastic writers out there, and I’ve had the luck of working with some of them. But sometimes the other side of the group is so overwhelming. I would also really, really love to be proven wrong about this.

I have so many interests, which has resulted into many ideas of what to do with this site. I’ve had a long-standing idea to turn this into not just a music writing site, but an overall culture writing site – books, films, art exhibitions, travel, etc. I’ve always wondered why no one has really started a website that reflects the way people actually ingest culture. Maybe I can be the one to do that.

But the last hard truth of this post is that I find myself unemployed for the third time in two years. Granted, two of those times have been my own doing. I’m not complaining. It’s just that paying the bills unfortunately takes priority over things that don’t.

This site is not dead, it’s just under-construction. For anyone who might still be paying attention, please keep watch over here now and then. There are things coming. There are ideas brewing.